praying

gold & cream fabric
miles & miles of fabric
covering the secrets
no one sees underneath
only the few

imposed life
rules for the mentally inept
for harsher times
square into round
guilt creeps

judging, judging
black & red eyes
from the pews
from the aisles
but no one knows

god is mine
i try not to surrender
those who would steal
worshipping
warped images
of a world gone
of a book from another place

their god is dead
mine might be alive
let him breathe
contradiction breeds guilt
each day
intellect vs faith
science vs belief
sense vs fantasy
religion vs reality

let it go
set it free
my god longs for me
for me to be free
of pain
of doubt
of fake faith
of forced ideals

longs for me
to accept
to celebrate
to embrace
to help
to reach

to live

resentment breeds hate
hate is the opposite of love
the negative of the spirit
religion is misery
misery is unnecessary
god hates misery
my god hates religion